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i love not thinking
one of the most important things we were forced to learn during the psychosis experience was that, watching anime and similar things like that, deliberately losing yourself in it, is kind of like meditation, a way to feel and think things without getting lost in them
and it was already our favourite thing in the entire world, but now it will be even greater, because it brought us back from the edge both for that reason and the inherent antipsychotic makes-your-brain-function-more-normally effect too
and now we are, may as well be fully recovered, we've seen too much vivid proof of it to assume much else
but there are things about how we got out of the psychosis state, things we feared while in it, that we would like not to think about
and so we will return to the anime
and we know, yes, that this is not a fully self-aware and humble thing to tweet at some level, but it is also the most likely thing we would tweet with our particular... current problem, and that's why we return to "meditation" i suppose
if you ever step outside your own frame to get learnings about yourself, and then become so smug about this in the other frame it almost kills you, and then find yourself forced to integrate the two frames to survive, what comes out the other end is a harrowed individual
@hikari true. congratulations on making it back 🍻
@unspeaker we are kind of making it but i need to point out here: every single time we say we're sure we're out of it, we are within a few hours immediately humbled by our own hubris almost making that not happen
@hikari iirc last time we exchanged words yall presented more singular: evidence there's modification going on. the most obvious set of difficulties with the process has to do with the nonobvious ways it relates to reality; but in any case a non-dodgeable relearning every few hours sounds exhausting. for what it's worth this one is sure of yalls ability to make the best of it, hubris or no hubris 🌠