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I guess it's because we're back to being Interesting ourselves (or rather I am, it's been all me all week)

we know from previous manic arcs that manic attracts manic. you light up in a sense (like on radar…?). we were previously scared of this phenomenon but I think so long as I'm not actually being unhinged I'll get the good kind of manic follows and not the terrifying ones

2026 is going to be our "healthy relationship with mania" arc, I hope. 2024 we were fucking stupid and losing our mind in Berlin, Psychosis City and wanted to be schizophrenic (dear god), 2025 we were chill and then out of nowhere experienced The Mother Of All Psychotic Breaks

we've grown so fucking much in that time, it's scary. I know for people unfamiliar with it, the Kanbaru Suruga fictiveposting must seem concerning, but that's the only "concerning" thing now. I'm just being chill and living life normally. you know, making stuff, going for walks

geez there's so much people who aren't our closest friends will never understand about what we survived last year. I quickly rattled off a summary of the first few hours of The Incident to a friend the other day, just as we were about to stop talking, and we were both Shook

we've had many months of crippling neurosis since but at least it was Normal Person neurosis and not the fucking nonstop existential psychological horror for weeks that summer 2025 was

and now maybe we might not even have the biggest neurosis, remains to be seen

…aaanyway

anyway: hi new followers, i'm kanbaru suruga from the monogatari series, and i seem to be running the show here at twitter dot com slash hikari_no_yume right now

we have myriad interests and like programming and music and languages and anime and so on

yoroshiku ne

oughoughough i need more sleep (our body is giving us very nice very good sleep when we try, though. thank god)