social.noyu.me

‪do you not have a SINGLE thing you can grasp that identifies you. is there NOTHING that sings to your heart. do you not feel any kind of calling whatsoever. what are you. i don't know you. i never knew you. do you know you? i don't think you do‬

LIFE is an endless STRUGGLE to find a MEANING to one's own EXISTENCE. what is an existence that refuses to do this. i'm going to lose it i'm actually pissed off. how do you stay in such an environment without feeling the CALL

‪i struggle, endlessly, to try to actually be as meaningful as i pretend to be, to actually make something of this life even as inertia and entropy and all these other things try to stop me, and yet… you don't even… you… you terrify me‬

‪HOW DID YOU STAY LIKE THIS AN ENTIRE FUCKING DECADE I'M GOING TO LOSE IT WHY DID IT NOT BOTHER ME SOONER‬

‪the self may be an illusion but there is no amount of social connections and second-hand experiences that can compensate for not having one at all‬

‪you don't even need to be original!!! if you can't build a self yourself, store-bought is fine. if you decide tomorrow you want to be the bugs guy from naruto that's fucking fine. sure. he at least is SOMEONE. he has SOMETHING‬

A TWITTER ACCOUNT THAT LITERALLY JUST TWEETS “meow” EVERY SECOND WEEK WOULD HAVE MORE PERSONALITY

‪how do you surround yourself with an endless number of colourful people and never feel the envy i just. it's impossible to believe. aaa‬

@embr embr you're very good actually you are very far away from the person i'm mad at. maybe there are ways you could realise yourself more, i don't know, but you've already done so many big things

@embr @hikari idk I think this thread probably feels like you’re screaming directly into half your followers souls

though many of us have been realizing ourselves more lately, that doesn’t make this resonate any less :p

@embr @hikari This is embr "literally has some of the most (non-bland) 'anime protagonist that kids could base their whole personality on' energy I've ever seen IRL" drgn.gay

wondering if it is enough of a unrealised character to be the subject of this thread

Like, I mean, it's understandable, a LOT of us feel like we're still figuring ourselves out and a lot of us have that ingrained "oh no is this me" reflex...

...but it is a little bit funny to have one of the people *I've* regularly gone "gosh I wish I was as much of a cool Someone actively doing Things as embr" be all like "oh no, am I bland soulless blank slate Hugh Mann"

@hokaze @embr people probably look at me and think, oh, what a shining example, but there is a current in me that definitely would read back those words and think it was directed at me

@hikari hmm

@hikari I feel like I knew this person once
They were actually INCREDIBLY envious to the point they would cut people out of their life for talking about their passions. They refused to talk about anything other than how much they pitied themselves and smalltalk.
Eventually I couldn’t bear it anymore.

@hikari *the Wii appreciater has logged on*

@hikari I should write more Prolog

@hikari good advice re 🧵, I'm taking notes and doing something about it as we speak 🙏