social.noyu.me

your egg does not have to hatch into a trans woman but it does have to hatch into Something goddamnit please fucking realise yourself, even if it's only for five minutes a week on an alt twitter account, you have to fucking be Someone, this is actually upsetting me

‪do you not have a SINGLE thing you can grasp that identifies you. is there NOTHING that sings to your heart. do you not feel any kind of calling whatsoever. what are you. i don't know you. i never knew you. do you know you? i don't think you do‬

LIFE is an endless STRUGGLE to find a MEANING to one's own EXISTENCE. what is an existence that refuses to do this. i'm going to lose it i'm actually pissed off. how do you stay in such an environment without feeling the CALL

‪i struggle, endlessly, to try to actually be as meaningful as i pretend to be, to actually make something of this life even as inertia and entropy and all these other things try to stop me, and yet… you don't even… you… you terrify me‬

‪HOW DID YOU STAY LIKE THIS AN ENTIRE FUCKING DECADE I'M GOING TO LOSE IT WHY DID IT NOT BOTHER ME SOONER‬

‪the self may be an illusion but there is no amount of social connections and second-hand experiences that can compensate for not having one at all‬

‪you don't even need to be original!!! if you can't build a self yourself, store-bought is fine. if you decide tomorrow you want to be the bugs guy from naruto that's fucking fine. sure. he at least is SOMEONE. he has SOMETHING‬

A TWITTER ACCOUNT THAT LITERALLY JUST TWEETS “meow” EVERY SECOND WEEK WOULD HAVE MORE PERSONALITY

‪how do you surround yourself with an endless number of colourful people and never feel the envy i just. it's impossible to believe. aaa‬

@embr @hikari This is embr "literally has some of the most (non-bland) 'anime protagonist that kids could base their whole personality on' energy I've ever seen IRL" drgn.gay

wondering if it is enough of a unrealised character to be the subject of this thread

Like, I mean, it's understandable, a LOT of us feel like we're still figuring ourselves out and a lot of us have that ingrained "oh no is this me" reflex...

...but it is a little bit funny to have one of the people *I've* regularly gone "gosh I wish I was as much of a cool Someone actively doing Things as embr" be all like "oh no, am I bland soulless blank slate Hugh Mann"